QUESTION

I just got out of a 2 year relationship, but I can’t let him go! He was a stunning guy, great personality every girls dream and I had him my first love. From the start he emotionally abused me and it went as far as physical abuse. It got bad one night when he hit me because I was crying about my dad that passed a month before ,he called his parents and they just watched and didn’t do anything, as I was running out the house my neighbors where waiting at the gate. They called the police and that’s where things got crazy I had to decide if they had to lock him up? So I said no I mean that’s the guy I love! A week later he convinced me to go for coffee, after hundreds of phone calls and smses. We had to speak about it. I was waiting and as soon as he sat down, his parents arrived; I got up walked to my car got in as he sat by my door not wanting me to leave. She saw me and wanted to attack me saying the most horrible things. He asked me if he could get in and we would never have to look back. I felt ambushed, said no and stormed off in shock! I got home and it was decided that I had to open a case (that is protection order and abuse) after all that he has just moved on, new girls going out ECT. And I am stuck I cry about him, miss him and love him and only remember the good! I know this sounds nuts but it feels like I can’t move on. I know that I am better off and will find some one worthy, but it doesn’t feel like it. I’m in such pain and just trying to put a smile on my face and be strong. .My court date is in 2 weeks. I am scared don’t know what to do or say?This will be the first time I see him. Nobody understands and no one can give me advice .I need help and where to go from here.
Please Please –I am scared.