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I know that a frend of mine raped me but even after the rape I couldn't speak out. Instead, I let him talk me into having repeated sex with him. Does the fact that I gave in 5 times after the initial rape change the fact that he had sex with me when I clearly said no the first time?
Absolutely not! Rape is rape and the subsequent acts of sex that it seems he coerced you into do not change that. Please get in touch with an organization like rape crisis or POWA where a trained counsellor will be able to help you to deal with this trauma.